Monday, October 14, 2013

Waking up in a Anxious State of Mind

Last night I felt bad; anxious, nervous, depressed and antsy. I couldn't sick still and my mind was wondering around racing beyond control. I wanted to climb out of my own skin. I woke up the same way.

I have no reason. Finances are fine. Could always be better, but whose couldn't? It was not a worry. My relationships, particularly with my wife and family, couldn't be better.

I am concerned about my sister taking my wheel chair bound mother to NYC. However, if they can handle the big city then they can handle anything. I admire my sister's balls. I wouldn't do it.

I am worried about US economic shutdown and looming default, but I have written to my US Representatives and Senators. I can't do anything rational about it.

I am a mere observer watching things I can't change. I hate being out of control, but these things should not make me wake up the same way I felt last night.

I don't like to take Seroquel in the morning because it makes me sleepy, but it also makes my brain slow down. It is a powerful mood stabilizer. I have that feeling. The feeling that leads me to the mental wing. I haven't felt it so strong since this past winter, but I feel it today. Yes, I need Seroquel. Damn.

1 comment:

  1. Oops!!! It is bad for health. Are you consult with doctor.

    Kopi Luwak